Friday, 7 March 2014
Sunday, 2 March 2014
A day in the life of a teenage mum!
7.30 in the morning, I wake from my deep sleep to the sound of 'yes my name is iggle piggle' drifting in from tiny persons bedroom. This is the usual wake up call we get. That or 'happy birthday to you'. Dragging myself out of bed, tripping over the cat and pile of washing I meant to put away.. 3 months ago, I sheepishly walk to the bathroom. My morning pee is the worst. Not only do I have baby staring at me over her stairgate as if I shut the bathroom door she'd panic, but I also have a cat meowing st me because every morning she seems to want to sit in the bath and drink from the taps!!
The rest of the morning is more eventful than the wake up routine. I tackle the cereal debate with the tiny person- she asks for cereal EVEERY morning without fail. We like to give her a variety of breakfasts. I drink hot coffee whilst I can, the only time of the day that I won't have a toddler hanging off my legs shouting 'share mummy' because she is too engrossed in the annoying pig that appears on the tele every morning without fail. And of course spilling her cereal everywhere, often sharing with her toys too.
The washing machine will often be washing the load I put in the night before and forgot take out! Most wash loads get washed at least 2 times before I remember to take them out! Breakfast will be a quick bite of toast, of course shared with princess alyssa! Her majesty requires a taste of every meal I have! It's the law.
More household chores often whilst counting to ten repeatedly and singing nursery rhymes to keep tiny ears entertained. A run around the house picking up bits and bobs that the morning has accumulated somehow. Wipe around the bathroom with the cat watching to see if I'll turn the tap on for her. She often gets lucky because the sound of meowing after a morning of toddler versions of row your boat and peppa pig mean any noise I try to eliminate asap!
Lunchtime is often calm- although miss piggy loves fruit so much that she often screams and screams for 2nds.. and 3rd,4th, 5ths!!
Naptime is always well looked forward to! Although before that can happen I have to sit through THE EXCRUTIATING pain that is Alyssas weird humming that self soothes her!
Often I fall asleep and wake up to Triston shouting at the xbox.. or the phone ringing for the billionth time!
Once baby is awake, the evening time is more relaxed. I've often sucked up to the fact that the rest of the housework really needs doing, so get on with it quietly. We play board games and do puzzles, often have to read 10 books at least.. putting on funny voices and giving myself a headache. Dinner time is my retreat. I love the time I get to spend cooking a healthy meal. It's so rewarding seeing it splattered all over the face of little one, whilst she declares mmmmm, nommm.
Daddy does the bedtime routine- he always has. This is the time I get to spend relaxing... pfft. Or washing up, sorting out bills, making phone calls, and maybe getting 5 minutes to breath!
Night time. Well you can guess. As soon as the mini me is asleep. I hit the sofa and don't move for the whole night! Until of course I get up to go to bed and remember the 1000 chores I forgot that day!
The rest of the morning is more eventful than the wake up routine. I tackle the cereal debate with the tiny person- she asks for cereal EVEERY morning without fail. We like to give her a variety of breakfasts. I drink hot coffee whilst I can, the only time of the day that I won't have a toddler hanging off my legs shouting 'share mummy' because she is too engrossed in the annoying pig that appears on the tele every morning without fail. And of course spilling her cereal everywhere, often sharing with her toys too.
The washing machine will often be washing the load I put in the night before and forgot take out! Most wash loads get washed at least 2 times before I remember to take them out! Breakfast will be a quick bite of toast, of course shared with princess alyssa! Her majesty requires a taste of every meal I have! It's the law.
More household chores often whilst counting to ten repeatedly and singing nursery rhymes to keep tiny ears entertained. A run around the house picking up bits and bobs that the morning has accumulated somehow. Wipe around the bathroom with the cat watching to see if I'll turn the tap on for her. She often gets lucky because the sound of meowing after a morning of toddler versions of row your boat and peppa pig mean any noise I try to eliminate asap!
Lunchtime is often calm- although miss piggy loves fruit so much that she often screams and screams for 2nds.. and 3rd,4th, 5ths!!
Naptime is always well looked forward to! Although before that can happen I have to sit through THE EXCRUTIATING pain that is Alyssas weird humming that self soothes her!
Often I fall asleep and wake up to Triston shouting at the xbox.. or the phone ringing for the billionth time!
Once baby is awake, the evening time is more relaxed. I've often sucked up to the fact that the rest of the housework really needs doing, so get on with it quietly. We play board games and do puzzles, often have to read 10 books at least.. putting on funny voices and giving myself a headache. Dinner time is my retreat. I love the time I get to spend cooking a healthy meal. It's so rewarding seeing it splattered all over the face of little one, whilst she declares mmmmm, nommm.
Daddy does the bedtime routine- he always has. This is the time I get to spend relaxing... pfft. Or washing up, sorting out bills, making phone calls, and maybe getting 5 minutes to breath!
Night time. Well you can guess. As soon as the mini me is asleep. I hit the sofa and don't move for the whole night! Until of course I get up to go to bed and remember the 1000 chores I forgot that day!
Tuesday, 25 February 2014
19 weeks pregnancy update!
19 weeks pregnant!! :) This week I barely have anything to report on! Baby's movements are getting stronger by the day- lots of kicks rather than waves of movement. I've been suffering really badly with heartburn/acid so have some medication coming. Sleep is getting a bit harder and I find myself waking earlier wanting to be up and at 'em haha. Emotionally I'm feeling fab- medication has really kicked in and i'm not having any negative thoughts! My belly is quickly expanding as you can see by the picture!! Alyssa is getting more involved and loves talking to my stomach!
Next week is our gender scan and i'm feeling excited, if a little nervous!
That's all for this week! Pregnancy is going amazingly!!
Wednesday, 19 February 2014
Another bad day.
Just as I thought I had picked myself up, stupid old me forgets to take my tablets and all my hard work comes crashing back down into the black hole that is depression. Last week was so positive. I was enjoying waking up and doing daily jobs, playing with Alyssa and just being a mum. The house was spotless, all washing caught up on and everyone was feeling positive. We enjoyed her birthday but straight after I could feel myself slipping. I went back to not wanting to get out of bed, sleeping on the sofa all afternoon and not feeling close to Alyssa. Then today just topped it off. Alyssa has obviously picked up on my stress and has played up something rotten. The house is a tip and Triston and I are disagreeing over everything because I'm feeling irritable. I thought I'd take Alyssa to the park but realised all my trousers/jeans etc were in the wash.. so that plan went out the window. Felt myself getting emotional- and realised I hadn't taken my tablets for a few days. Went to look for them and they've disappeared. Every time I do this. When I'm on a high I forget about my medication- I enjoy the happiness too much to notice. Then I scoop back down into a bad place again.
Really struggling today, and can't help but think that I'll be relying on tablets to make me happy for the rest of my life.
Really struggling today, and can't help but think that I'll be relying on tablets to make me happy for the rest of my life.
Tuesday, 18 February 2014
18 weeks pregnancy update!
18 weeks pregnant!
This week I've hit 18 weeks!! Still feeling amazing! We celebrated Alyssa's 2nd birthday and have been busy, busy, busy!
Symptom wise, everything is going well. I have a little bit of SPD pain, heartburn/acid and feeling hungry but nothing to disturb everyday life.
My belly is slowly starting to round out and emotionally I'm feeling super- if a little stressed from a toddler with the terrible twos lol!
We have finally got our names set for baby, just need to wait for our next scan (in 2 weeks) to see if we can find out the gender.
Alyssa is becoming increasingly involved with baby. Always asking to see my belly and give baby a kiss or a tickle. She's going to be an amazing big sister!
At this point with Alyssa I still had severe morning sickness, terrible heartburn and was very emotional so I'm feeling glad this pregnancy is different!
That is all I have to report on this week, stick around for my next update!!
Monday, 10 February 2014
Pooooooorly! 17 week pregnancy update.
I have just realised that I've been lacking on posts recently. Three weeks ago I fell unwell, I was having headaches, nosebleeds, collapsing, chest pains and breathlessness. I went to hospital and was told it was just a chest infection. So I started the antibiotics and was put on bed rest. I felt dreadful and I just didn't get better. Things were getting worse and I couldn't move off the sofa. Triston had time off work which was a great help. After I finished the antibiotics we went swimming. Bad idea. I had a severe allergic reaction to a chemical in the pool. My legs were so swollen and covered in burns and blisters. Resulted in another trip to hospital. They gave me more antibiotics for my chest and other medications for my legs.
Anyway, to cut to the chase I've only just started feeling a bit more human.
I am 17 weeks pregnant today and pregnancy wise feeling fab. All symptoms have gone- although nesting has come around again lol.
I am feeling small wriggles in my tummy and baby hates when I lie on it- cue the sleepless nights haha.
My skin and hair is doing fine, no sickness anymore and emotionally I feel great. More than ready to welcome our new baby.
In 24 days we find out the gender and have decided to keep it a secret from friends lol.
A bump is starting to develop finally and slimming world is going great- still losing weight but baby is growing healthily.
The midwife found babys heartbeat and we also found out that I am finally immune to rubella- which I wasn't with Alyssa. My iron/blood pressure is perfect and urine clear!
So that's a bit of an update for you all! Sorry for lack of posts!! I hope you can understand why lol.
Here is bumpy at 16+6 weeks.
Anyway, to cut to the chase I've only just started feeling a bit more human.
I am 17 weeks pregnant today and pregnancy wise feeling fab. All symptoms have gone- although nesting has come around again lol.
I am feeling small wriggles in my tummy and baby hates when I lie on it- cue the sleepless nights haha.
My skin and hair is doing fine, no sickness anymore and emotionally I feel great. More than ready to welcome our new baby.
In 24 days we find out the gender and have decided to keep it a secret from friends lol.
A bump is starting to develop finally and slimming world is going great- still losing weight but baby is growing healthily.
The midwife found babys heartbeat and we also found out that I am finally immune to rubella- which I wasn't with Alyssa. My iron/blood pressure is perfect and urine clear!
So that's a bit of an update for you all! Sorry for lack of posts!! I hope you can understand why lol.
Here is bumpy at 16+6 weeks.
Sunday, 5 January 2014
Depression doesn't stop for birthdays.
On the 3rd of January, I turnt 18. A big milestone.. but I didn't feel like celebrating.
As I was told my life begins now, I'm an adult now.. and after a meal with all of my friends soon to be Uni students, I felt awful.
I've never regretted the decisions I've made.. and never will.. however on my birthday, I felt different.
I thought about my friends, going to Uni.. getting jobs, parties etc.. and wondered if I had done the right thing.
Obviously my low confidence helped my brain make the decision that I hadn't done the right thing.
I felt like a rubbish mum- no job, no further education.. nothing to show my girl and her brother or sister how well I've done. No hobby to be proud of.. no job to provide for them.
Now I know, sympathy isn't given when you've gor yourself into a situation and you'll be thinking it's my own fault- I'm not silly.. but I feel the need to share this to show teenage girls that having a baby isn't JUST about dressing them up and pushing prams.
Opportunities like college/uni/parties etc.. are twice as hard to work for, take twice as long to do for some.. or never happen at all. Especially if you're unfortunate enough to develop depression.
I broke down in tears and couldn't stop. My 18th should be about plans to move out, partying and forgetting about coursework for a day. Not tidying up my own house whilst chasing my child around and throwing up morning sickness.
It was a horrid morning.. I doubted my parenting and everything.
That afternoon, I sat down and Alyssa came running up to me, hugged me and pronounced peoudly 'I love you mummy'. Out of the blue.. a whole sentance. Not even 2 years old.
That's when it hit me.. I dont have qualifications (that won't get you far in this day anyway) I don't have a job (but Triston does and provides for us) I don't have parties (that would be forgotten anyway) but what I do have is 1000000x better than any of that. I have a clever little girl who loves me, dotes on me and cherishes time with me.. who I will guide into the right direction and show the world to.
Being a parent is hard.. being one with an extra hurdle like being young or depression, or any other hurdle is even harder.
Think about what you want before making that one decision that could change your life forever.
As I was told my life begins now, I'm an adult now.. and after a meal with all of my friends soon to be Uni students, I felt awful.
I've never regretted the decisions I've made.. and never will.. however on my birthday, I felt different.
I thought about my friends, going to Uni.. getting jobs, parties etc.. and wondered if I had done the right thing.
Obviously my low confidence helped my brain make the decision that I hadn't done the right thing.
I felt like a rubbish mum- no job, no further education.. nothing to show my girl and her brother or sister how well I've done. No hobby to be proud of.. no job to provide for them.
Now I know, sympathy isn't given when you've gor yourself into a situation and you'll be thinking it's my own fault- I'm not silly.. but I feel the need to share this to show teenage girls that having a baby isn't JUST about dressing them up and pushing prams.
Opportunities like college/uni/parties etc.. are twice as hard to work for, take twice as long to do for some.. or never happen at all. Especially if you're unfortunate enough to develop depression.
I broke down in tears and couldn't stop. My 18th should be about plans to move out, partying and forgetting about coursework for a day. Not tidying up my own house whilst chasing my child around and throwing up morning sickness.
It was a horrid morning.. I doubted my parenting and everything.
That afternoon, I sat down and Alyssa came running up to me, hugged me and pronounced peoudly 'I love you mummy'. Out of the blue.. a whole sentance. Not even 2 years old.
That's when it hit me.. I dont have qualifications (that won't get you far in this day anyway) I don't have a job (but Triston does and provides for us) I don't have parties (that would be forgotten anyway) but what I do have is 1000000x better than any of that. I have a clever little girl who loves me, dotes on me and cherishes time with me.. who I will guide into the right direction and show the world to.
Being a parent is hard.. being one with an extra hurdle like being young or depression, or any other hurdle is even harder.
Think about what you want before making that one decision that could change your life forever.
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